Welcoming Tricks Into My Heart

I am soooooo super excited to welcome a new beautiful baby boy kitten into my home. I responded to a craigslist posting a few days ago and after a day of suffering I was told I could adopt the little fella'. He is the most fluffy and adorable little creature I have ever laid eyes on. He is black and 7 weeks old.

I went out yesterday and purchase (A LOT) of new kitty cat supplies. A leopard print bed, a scratching post, a litter box and litter, two mouse toys, some bath-time wipes, a brush, a collar, and a little leopard print tunnel toy he can run through! I'm so excited to pick him up Saturday and spend the weekend playing with him.

But not worries! I have not neglected my turtle, Scotty. I bought him a brand new tank (twice the size of his current tank), a new filter, and a tiki toy that Richie insisted I buy him. :)

Below are pictures of my new baby kitten, Tricks and his big brother Scotty.

I hope to one day when I move into a bigger dwelling I can adopt a second kitten and name him/her Treats. Get it? Tricks and Treats :) I am really set on my second kitten being a disabled cat. I care so much about animals and hate to think that no one would adopt a cute furry buddy just because he is missing an eye or a leg. They need love too. Tricks is perfect and healthy, but I plan on adopting a special cat in the future.

Family Ties and Love Knots

It's sad to say this out loud, but my very dear uncle Julio Rodriguez passed away on April 16th due to a rare terminal brain disease. This being said, I've gone through a lot in the past few weeks and have done A LOT of thinking. It became so clear how important family can be and how true the "blood is thicker than water" saying is. I went down to Florida for the viewing, wake, and burial. This is when reality set it. I never imagined having to hug and hold so many of my family members. Showing them I was there for them and loved them no matter what. I wanted to do whatever I could to make everyone's pain go away. It was amazing to see my cousins and I reunite the way we did, as if it hadn't been a long time since we last saw each other. To comfort one another and say "I love you" over and over. I am usually not affected by sad situations and it is usually thrown in my face. Someone will say "How can you not be crying? You're such a bitch", but someone has to be the sane/strong one while everyone breaks down. I shed a few tears during my time in Florida. Seeing my uncle in his shell in the casket, then watching the pain of my Aunt and Cousin. It hurt inside to know that one day I would have to feel that way should my mother or lover pass away.

My trip to Florida lead to deep deep thinking. How do you throw away true love, when you know you'll never find anything like it again? I decided to be strong and forgive (but not forget), because I want the type of love my Aunt and Uncle had for 25yrs... and I know I already found it. I want nothing more than to be happy... and true love makes me happy. I found that special only-in-the movies type of connection and I'll be damned if challenges and struggles will take that away from me. In my life, when it rains it pours, but when the clouds clear out it is painfully beautiful. It just takes time for the clouds to clear. I'm willing to be patient and put forth the effort.

Basically, I've decided to give love a chance. I've learned that family will ALWAYS be there, I will always be there for them, they come first, and they are the most special part of your life. I have decided to keep better contact with my family. Particularly my cousins. I would hate to grow apart from such wonderful and strong people.

Hugs and Punks (and love!) to all,

Sin Dee

Curvalicious conflicts...

I've had something on my mind lately....

Size and body shape has always been an internal conflict for me as a model. As a pin up model, the genre embraces full figures and curves, however the general modeling industry doesn't. I have gained some weight since I first began modeling, and I've received mixed reactions to this. Some people love the new bootylicious me ... some think I look overweight and unfit. With people telling me two different things, it is harder to further my modeling career.

Which "look" to do go for? Should I choose how I feel most comfortable or should I make sacrifices for my career and look the way the want me to? Do I look the way men want me to or do I look the way photographers want me to? It's a hard decision and working on a woman's body is hard enough. I could only wish people weren't as superficial as they truly are. Unfortunately, relationships begin from a physical attraction. And in the modeling industry, your jobs are based on your looks. Which is most important, the career or the love life?

It's sad to know that no matter how amazing your personality, you do judge a book by its cover.

Hugs and Punks,
A slightly sadder Sin

Freeze! TIME OUT

Time Out magazine wrote an article on the NY Pin Up Photography Group! How fun! Check out the full article (including quotes by yours truly) at the following link: http://newyork.timeout.com/articles/own-this-city/72984/the-new-york-pin-up-photography-meetup-group

Cut it out and cut them off

I am known for quickly cutting people out of my life who do me wrong. I am not the person to give someone a second chance. As a friend (or more) I am dedicated and give these people in my life my all.. or as much as I can to make sure they are happy. When someone proves that they have taken my friendship for granted or do not respect me, then I quickly erase them from my life. Unfortunately for me, this is a common theme in my life. I love and give love... then eventually it bites me in the ass. It is more traumatic this way because I am so loyal and dedicated to people, that when they do hurt me, it hurts about 50 times more than it should.

In the past six months I have been faced with many life changing decisions which included cutting a few people out of my life. Unfortunately, some of these people were the most important people in my life. It was one of the most painful times of my life... but I always know these decisions are for the best. They can only make you stronger.

Nowadays it is harder to become close to anyone and trust just anyone. I have tried building relationships/friendships, but luckily for me... I've come to find out sooner than later that most people in this world play games. Most people lie, are selfish, and could care less about another person. It makes me wonder if there are any genuine and loyal people out there. Someone who is truly brutally honest from day one, someone who will be a true friend, someone who cares about the happiness of others, and someone who doesn't play games. I can only cross my fingers that I can come across more of these positive characters and invite them into my life.